You fly across the stratosphere
You will meet him in the ether
I'll be waiting
Blissed Out Senseless
I'm a giddy and stupid mess
I'm far too taken for second thoughts
I used to be too proud to wait
and now I'm analyzing every move every word
Everyone tells me that the distance promises pain
I'm going to shred myself you just watch
Cross the line between safety and having a heart,
being in tune, generate love.
I think I see the end today
I stand older wiser
grabbing nothing hoping nothing
--
You walk this world, you're barely aware
go with the flow
discover the rules
enter the slipstream
dream on, dead weight
You walk this world, you're barely aware
next goal, next prize,
congratulations, you're still dead weight
and I can't and I won't give it up
nobody else can do this job and nobody will
and it all comes down on me
It's only natural feeling upset
nobody told you
you had to stand up for all your privilege
dream on, dead weight
It's only natural feeling upset
"I earned this all myself "
you say, dream on, dead weight
and I can't and I won't give it up
nobody else can do this job and nobody will
and it all comes down on me
if nobody else will do this job
then you don't deserve your life or dignity
let it fall on me and
I'll let you down hard
--
She's got a dozen observers
stabbing her with needles
as they hold her down
water, raw eggs to force feed her
a priest and guru
argue how they'll put her in the ground
Bad decisions
Mute, paralyzed
a Chinese puzzle box that no one wants to try
we share silent clarity
we know the only answer: she wants to die
Bad decisions
--
Words are lost on me
lessons young betrayed
Now time's running out
and I won't just dwell on mistakes I made
Bring on the firing line
Bring on the saints and darkness
There's a reckoning
and a peace at dawn
there's a final land
and an angel singing a harvest song
Bring on the rising tides
Bring on your so-called justice
Follow you, I'll follow you onward
follow you, I'll follow you
don't just give your life away
follow you I'll follow you
till you repay the faith I have in you
Demo Two
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These worms inside me won't let me die
cut me once and I'll laugh through it
cut me twice and that's a little rude
talk a little more shit
and I'm gonna have to
hit back
now, now I'm on the verge
on the verge of blood
I'll cut you open
is this what you want?
if you lived a hundred fifty years
and you never once were a leader
that makes you a worm with an attitude
[many notes]
I live to kill a thousand evil men
it's hard to tell the dumb from the wicked
So, be safe and stay on my good side
--
So soon so soon
we'll be picking all the pieces up
all the plans that seemed so final
then I'll wait, again I'm waiting
for you to make up your mind
without hope, without fear
So soon so soon
we'll be living in an amber world
everything so clear and final
but I wait, again I'm waiting
for you to make up your mind
without hope, without fear
Let's try every trick in the book,
let's count up tea leaves
hold our breath
hallucinate our way to true
choose me
So soon so soon
We'll be picking all the pieces up
all the plans that kept me going
if you only knew this feeling of helplessness
you'd think twice
--
I breathed Greyhound bus exhaust
across the state, six hours a week
left my new friends behind
for a tour of small town bus stop signs
Engines rock me to sleep
and your gratitude it lasted
just as long as your loneliness
put me back on the shelf
like a bottle of pills
use only when necessary
Carolina
Carolina, you fall apart
I know that it's wrong
but I don't give a damn
Watching helicopters landing
'neath the tram, all confused
and I can't understand
why you cancelled your plans
I never asked for help before
That was drowning time
but old friends helped me through
no thanks to you
no thanks to you
I don't owe you anything
yeah you put me in place
and I swear I'll never be that stupid again
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April twenty-second, getting better from the illness that I
Recently wrote you about. The doctor says I should regain most
Of the things that I have lost. The vines are good, the fruit
is
sweet this Year, I want to stay here but it's harder to maintain.
It's April twenty-second here
Nothing ever changes here
I will be there when I can
I will be there just as soon as I can
April twenty-second, my condition's getting worse so I went
To the doctor and he told me I might not recover but the
Vines are good, the fruit is sweet this year, I want to stay here but
it's Getting harder all the time, it's harder to maintain
It's April twenty-second here
Nothing ever changes here
I will be there when I can
I will be there just as soon as I can